my only sole companion now
dear blog :)
i guess u are my one and only companion now.
instead of calling my darlings every now and then. i might as well don't be any irritating asshole. i might as well tell you. a blog is always a blog. i know you will never find me irrtating. nor you will ever give up on me.
what did meishan do today?
appointment in the morning at henderson industrial park. then back to office. then back to work. then went to the gym. oh, i had at 3km run. completed in 18.5 mins. not happy with the performance though. thought i could have done better. but really, i am not feeling well. i am really not feeling well.
what am i doing now? at 7pm? when i am supposed to be on my way home and perhaps meet some of my friends. and maybe smsing him. i am here. alone in the office. blogging. crying. listening to some song that i thought perfectly relates my story.
keep logging onto msn. keep staring at his msn. guess what? i only know how to stare. i don't even have the courage to msn him. i don't even have the courage to say hi. only know how to stare. meishan, you are hopeless.
a week ago. at this time. i think we are already arguing. he most prob have already decided to let go. let go of this little faith of me. let go of us. let go of my hands. let go of our promises. let go of the future we wanted to paint together. let go of the memories. let go of everything of ours.
what is he doing now? doing his fyp? concentrating on his online stuffs? designing for his event's t shirts? emoing? having dinner? playing with his hamsters? watching tv? watching animations? talking to his parents? talking to his brother? talking to his brother's gf?
how come of all that i think he is doing, none of which relates to me? WHY? does he still think of me occassionally? does he still think of our happy memories? or is there none for him to relate to? and that is the reason why he perhaps don't wish to be reminded of me?
can i go find you now? u dun have to talk. i just want to see you. because i simply miss you. i just want to see you and say hi. yes, hi. just hi.
hi.
i guess u are my one and only companion now.
instead of calling my darlings every now and then. i might as well don't be any irritating asshole. i might as well tell you. a blog is always a blog. i know you will never find me irrtating. nor you will ever give up on me.
what did meishan do today?
appointment in the morning at henderson industrial park. then back to office. then back to work. then went to the gym. oh, i had at 3km run. completed in 18.5 mins. not happy with the performance though. thought i could have done better. but really, i am not feeling well. i am really not feeling well.
what am i doing now? at 7pm? when i am supposed to be on my way home and perhaps meet some of my friends. and maybe smsing him. i am here. alone in the office. blogging. crying. listening to some song that i thought perfectly relates my story.
keep logging onto msn. keep staring at his msn. guess what? i only know how to stare. i don't even have the courage to msn him. i don't even have the courage to say hi. only know how to stare. meishan, you are hopeless.
a week ago. at this time. i think we are already arguing. he most prob have already decided to let go. let go of this little faith of me. let go of us. let go of my hands. let go of our promises. let go of the future we wanted to paint together. let go of the memories. let go of everything of ours.
what is he doing now? doing his fyp? concentrating on his online stuffs? designing for his event's t shirts? emoing? having dinner? playing with his hamsters? watching tv? watching animations? talking to his parents? talking to his brother? talking to his brother's gf?
how come of all that i think he is doing, none of which relates to me? WHY? does he still think of me occassionally? does he still think of our happy memories? or is there none for him to relate to? and that is the reason why he perhaps don't wish to be reminded of me?
can i go find you now? u dun have to talk. i just want to see you. because i simply miss you. i just want to see you and say hi. yes, hi. just hi.
hi.
posted by mEishAn at 7:04 PM
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Hey meishan take care and dun think too much :)
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